i dunno if its possible that i've felt so demoralised in my life. if you were to ask me if bslc was tough i would say that it's quite slack actually. but im the most fucking suay person in the world having gotten into unnecessary trouble and unintentionally pissing higher authorities off. and honestly doesnt pay i realised that now. im being told to face the music but it requires me to face the prospect of not being able to come home next weekend for an offence that doesnt befit the punishment. im getting so sick and demoralised and physically im feeling the toll. i just hope these 2 weeks fly by and i get through it intact and sane. the only positive is that i finally got a silver for ippt after failing three times in a row. pls god gimme back my life again